There are so many things to have guilt trips about, especially when hurting from a postpartum mood disorder. Oh my…just thinking of the word “guilt” brings memories racing back to me! I could blog on any number of topics surrounding guilt and my experience with PPD.
The biggest one for me, however, was breastfeeding vs. bottlefeeding.
I recently ran across the following article on MSNBC.com: Is breastfeeding really best?
I’ve been pondering this topic for a few days now and thought I’d share in detail my experiences regarding my decisions, thought process, guilt and resolution regarding breast or bottle. It was a major part of my initial PPD struggle. I realize that many hurting moms successfully breastfeed and that is wonderful. I also know some do not. It is my goal to encourage those who may still feel guilt about their decision.
I was going to be the ideal mom, breastfeeding my baby from the minute he or he was born until the first birthday. I would have incredible success and naysayers be, well, you know. I took the class, read the books and nodded obligingly when a dear friend told me to be mentally prepared to not breastfeed because sometimes it just happens that way.
Oh no, not to me. Because stuff never happens like that to me.
Just like infertility never happened to me, or PPD.
(Wow, this is more difficult to write about than I thought it would be…to be continued…more is coming, I promise.)